Thought Of Various Suicidal
Categories: emotion
My person hides in the dormitory to cry ah cry, crying dark all round, crying him whats did not know, the ability after half many hour gradually had dot perception. I hate myself, hate oneself pure ignorance, hate oneself foolish in the extreme, him hate resembles a nmed leprosy to want always however to eat swan meat, I thought of dead motive, thought of various suicidal means, to this world, what do I still have but of accept as a souvenir Later a my most the after the event that the classmate that be close friends knew me persuades me ceaselessly, slowly I also gave up at long last dead motive. Graduation eve, below the help of that classmate, I am silent became abortive operation toward the hospital. In the hospital, ground of my in fear and trembling is red face asks a doctor: Will I still be born henceforth raise That doctor uses the look of a kind of barpque contempt having a place to look at me to say: “There won’t be any effects now, if you become such operation twice again, very it’s hard to say. comes out from the hospital, I weathered very hardly 7 days of after this, he may know the thing that I abort, also did not see me, I also do not think good-bye he, admittedly I cannot forget him.
Very fast I graduated, putting diploma of a piece of three-year institution of higher learning, I began me work career. Want to stay in this city that I read very much originally, can be the cause as a result of Li Bin, this I read the city of two years of books to had done not have any places that let me be reluctant to leave here, admittedly I am thinking him as before in night a lot of day, think the happy time when move and he is together, thinking him to once was brought to me always difficult the memory that efface.I know I am impossible to do not love him, also be afraid that oneself study abroad in this city, the meeting that can not dominate oneself only is gone to look for him, so I can choose to escape only.

